[生活雜碎] 只有腐爛瞭解雨後落葉的寂寞

在這個下雨的陰霾午後，落葉與雨細細敲著窗玻璃，但心情很沈重。

一連下了好幾天雨的星期六午後，待在家裡處理一些未完的事情。

我婉拒了錄妹在前兩天打電話告知有特殊管道可以索票的安藤演講邀約，想了一天一夜，還是決定拒絕安藤那個創造神蹟般的佈道會式大拜拜，太像一個直銷品牌的年度聚會。我不覺得擠身在小巨蛋聽到跟沒有聽到他的演講對我會有什麼太過明顯的實質差別，頂多只是少了在入場前出場後跟熟識師長友人的問候。尤其之前編過他的A＋U繁體中文版之後，我就開始對他失去了興趣，像沒了味道嚼勁逐漸僵硬無趣的口香糖，那個我在京都鴨川畔深深著迷的TIME’S I & II，那個我在東京表參道上下穿繞，深深著迷的那些小尺度建築時期細膩質感的安藤忠雄，已經消失不見了。

重複聽著Ghost in the shell II: Innocence中由Kimiko Itoh演唱的兩首歌River of Crystals跟Follow me，很適合下雨天的心情。只是我沒有[預告片版]的Follow me，有點可惜。但YouTube上有，只是配櫬的動畫剪接不是那麼喜愛，或許抓下來先頂擋一下直到找到音樂版本。但原聲帶版的Follow me套句浪先生的說法，頗有鬼魅的幽邈氣息，鬼鬼的在夜晚無人的建築系館聽著聽著可以媲美蔡明亮用來當天邊一朵雲配樂的白光的聲音。在這個下雨的午後，天漸漸漸漸陰暗了下來，斷續風雨始終讓我不斷想起銀翼殺手/ Blade Runner，那個始終陰鬱黏膩潮濕籠罩在蒸騰廢棄煙霧冰冷氛圍的2019 ，想起魯格豪爾/Roy在臨死前那場滂沱大雨中吟誦的詩篇：

I've seen things you people wouldn't believe.
Attack ships on fire off the shoulder of Orion.
I watched c-beams glitter in the dark near the Tanhauser Gate.
All those...moments will be lost...in time.
Like...tears...in rain.
Time...to die.

昨晚寫信給魚小姐，希望西雅圖的溫暖更甚溫哥華。
生活諸事逐漸變質，由生雞蛋煮成熟蛋，不能還原的悲哀的變質。

只有腐爛瞭解雨後落葉的寂寞。




River of Crystals

演唱︰伊藤君子
作詞︰板本美雨
作曲‧編曲︰川井憲次

Crystal memories
Touched by your voice, in the moonlight

"Nothing lasts." you said.
But everything still holds meaning in my heart

Hidden deep in my mind
River to the time
That we once shared together-
the pictures are still on the wall and why.
shining smiles, like snow flakes.
all melted and gone away

Only answer was to live.
and I am still here-
with your memories...

dreaming hopelessly.
holding in my heart
all the flowers you left...
Crystallized moments
Shattered into frozen pieces in my tears

River of moonlight
I hear your voice echoing.
but I'm here, alone...

Crystal melodies
moments so sweet, I remember

"Nothing lasts." you said.
Then why is pain still confusing memories

Only time will go on
River has its end
Our light was blown by the wind
My fingers reach out and find no one there
Rainy sky, please tell me my emptiness will be filled

Only answer was to live.
and I am still here-
with your memories...

walking hopelessly.
holding in my eyes
all the colors you left..

broken melodies
No more singing, no more laughing in the sun

River of moonshine
I hear your voice echoing
But I'm still alone...


Follow Me

演唱：伊藤君子
作詞：Herbert Kretzmer/Hal Shapey　
作曲：Joaquin Rodrigo

Follow me to a land across the shining sea
Waiting beyond the world that we have known
Beyond the world the dream could be
And the joy we have tasted

Follow me along the road that only love can see
Rising above the fun years of the night
Into the light beyond the tears
And all the years we have wasted

Follow me to a distant land this mountain high
Where all the music that we always kept inside will fill the sky
Singing in the silent swerve a heart is free
While the world goes on turning and turning
Turning and falling

Follow me to a distant land this mountain high
Where all the music that we always kept inside will fill the sky
Singing in the silent swerve a heart is free
While the world goes on turning and turning
Turning and falling

Follow me…
Follow me…
Follow me…